This morning I had the strongest cold brew coffee I've ever had because of the lack of sleep from last night's anxiety. I had one main emotion: terrified. In 2000, The Simpsons aired an episode where President Lisa Simpson would inherit America’s “brokeness” after Donald Trump’s presidency. It’s funny because it’s The Simpsons, it’s funny because Trump is a joke, it’s funny because we all laughed with some type of validation that our country would never see a reality TV star become the President of the United States. Yet, it happened. I cried.
I was terrified because as an Asian-American female living in the California bubble that has mostly reflected diversity in its’ population, we’re watching a sexist, homophobic, racist, xenophobic, etc. individual, sit at the highest position in our country. The recording of his voice, “Grab ‘em by the pussy” still haunts me knowing his supporters turned a blind eye to that statement, above the other hurtful choices of words he’s used not just during this election, but in his lifetime. I’m reading posts of those who are also terrified and wondering whether they should leave the country, two of my friends got into a Twitter argument (but are on the same team), those who I look up to have even responded with doubt or haven't responded at all, people are bullying and categorizing one another, jokes are continuing and the list goes on. Our energy is being fueled by negativity but perhaps we should remember that we’ll need to save that for what’s to come.
As it reaches the late afternoon, I am now on my second cup of coffee and I can’t get my fingers to remove themselves off of social media and news links. Then it dawned on me that although I’m eager to be educating myself on this election and thereafter, I was also wasting time by not being productive with what I DO have to look forward to. I realize now more than ever that our highest position of power in our nation comes from ourselves, especially when we stand side-by-side. Our highest position of power in our universe is the Man who shows us obstacles to experience triumph, time and time again. A new president, or person, or groups of people should not diminish what we as a whole have worked so hard for as far as general human rights and the simple ability to do what we love and love what we do. My vote stays with being a good person and making good work. It is our responsibility and duty to do so.
As the jokes about moving to Canada and elsewhere are funny, I’m staying the fuck here with my cold brew and continuing to do what gets me up in the morning; this time, with more fuel to prove all of the statistics wrong. We will have a female president one day (even if it is Lisa Simpson).